#i couldve gotten into kpop way earlier ugh

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this girl ruined kpop for me in hs

ive been reflecting a lot of my past and who i am today and i would jus like to say that i think that a large reason as to why i got into kpop so late into the game is because of a girl from high school.

during orientation, i remember meeting this girl bc my friend and i were talking abt kpop i believe. but more so my friend had mentioned them and i asked a question abt it. this girl standing next us in line starts talking abt bts with us and thats where it begins. at the time, i remember her saying her nickname (she told us her 'korean' name and 'korean' nickname even tho she was hispanic, sorry i dont remember what specific hispanic) and having red flags begin to pop up.

since we were in the same program in school, we typically had at least one class together each year except for junior year. thank goodness bc our program class was a double class and we had been in so many classes at that point. anyways i digress. she would always bring up bts and twice!!

at the time of writing this i realized that she hella scarred twice for me but mommy jihyo rlly sold it for me after discovering them in 2020. whenever we were in class, she would always just randomly call my name and start doing twice dances like TT or cheer up, which unfortunately prompted me to absolutely hate on her and unfortunately see twice in a bad light. she was also obsessed with jk and would always 'pair' herself with him which at the time was extremely cringey to witness. overall, i wasnt a big fan of her and was stuck with her for four whole years and am so glad that i never see her at college.

prior to getting back into kpop, i originally got into it during my last year of middle school, but ultimately decided to drop it before i entered high school bc i figured i needed a clean slate when i started attending. (pls dont judge, i had just secured a group of friends who were going to hs with me and never had a real friend group before that. i was doing my best to fit in with them to keep in my life forever, but well only 3 of them remained with me and im so so so grateful for them).

anyways bringing us to today, where im pretty sure a lot of the reason that i got into kpop so late was bc a girl in hs who i thought was really cringey and generally not my vibe ruined it for me.